If you need me, I’ll be looking for mom

I think it’s time to try and find my birth mother.

I’m ready to open up that door that has remained shut all these years. Think it’s time to answer the questions that have stayed with me my entire life. I’ve written about her before, drawing great response from readers with similar stories.

But I can’t stop thinking about my birth mom. Not out of wistfulness or regret, for I love my life and the opportunities I’ve been given. I have been blessed with so much.

It’s not a constant preoccupation, not at all. I just know that feeling is back again. Maybe it’s because my birthday is coming up in a few weeks.

My family has never pestered me about this one way or the other, always leaving the decision to me.

I suspect once they find out, the response will be, “what took you so long?”

I wish there was an app for this, a Google search that would answer all my questions. I wish it were that easy.

No, I expect it to be difficult. And still in the back of my mind, I wonder if I’m ready to accept the answers from what this will reveal.

But I at least have to try, before it’s too late.


3 Replies to “If you need me, I’ll be looking for mom”

  1. Not sure why I didn’t catch it before. I probably made another wrong assumption. But I wish you well on your search and hope that it brings a level of peace to your life. Maybe just as important is that you’ve put yourself in a position that you’re ready for whatever answers you find.

  2. I’m glad you’re doing what you need to do. Good luck with the search. You may find it easier than you think. As you know, two of my grandchildren are adopted. We have purposely gathered information and saved it for a time when they may want to open those doors. I hope you find out what you need to know. Since you have a wonderful wife and great kids, you have nothing to lose, right? The worst that can happen is you rediscover that you have a wonderful wife and great kids. If you end up adding to that, that’s great. If not, you are still loved by those who know you best.

  3. Mike–you may not (or may…) think so, but that is such an incredibly brave thing to do. The older I get the more I think about doing the same thing. Of course, the older I get my birth parents could be gone. Best of luck in your search. I’m sure you’ll find so much more than just a person, and maybe, that’s the point anyway.

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